I wasn’t aware it was just a game to you, shoulda known better ’cause they all saw how you do. You never wanted it to last, you were just passing through. Here to “give it a whirl,” and now push it forcefully into the past. Drop it, Watch it, a beautiful thing shattered like glass. Because if it’s funny, it’s just some sad joke, and I was just some object you picked up to help you cope. Makes you feel better, a tear shed in your name, a heart ache in the same vein. Lost promises, false hopes, left in a tidy stack of lies and wilted dreams. Rewind, to the first time, line by line, recoil back in my mouth, don’t let it out, never let your thoughts into my head, never listened to a word you said, never slept in your bed, never even got off that plane… and lucky you, I didn’t know what to say.

And I wonder if it’s a flaw in my own character,
to not be able to recognize a prideful contender,
another step back, another look over my shoulder,
and there’s no one there but me.
Too trusting.
thoughts echo off these empty walls,
and I’m bracing for this fall,
as floor turns ceiling, silent reeling,
and your blank stare just looks so appealing.
Just sleep through til the weekend,
night falls jump off the deep end,
in hindsight I see you played your cards just right,
and what stupid girl doesn’t want to believe it’s not love.
And don’t get your hopes up dear,
I claim no fights nor rights here,
there’s no vendetta, there’s no extra credit,
close out wholesale, you said it, I get it.