Sometimes the psychological rational for actions and feelings is sorely lacking. This doesn’t mean it has no basis in reality, but more so that things cannot be explained in the realm that belongs to human understanding. Thoughts and thought processes that often exceed the capable realm of understanding are so much thought to be “unreal” or “crazy” but I would have to disagree in the utmost of a vehement option. You can’t touch air, or see it, but you know its there. We’ve accepted that air (oxygen) is a natural component; vital to our existence. So why no intuition? Why not the gut feeling that something is right? Granted it is very subjective and cannot be proven by science, but on the same token I believe there is something to be said for people being able to trust an intuitive instinct and foster positive results from it. As is fact gleaned from science by preforming the same action again and again with the same results… as is intuition and instinct.
If someone were to question me on my reaction and attraction to said (previously) person. I would be able to give the a myriad of different reasons why I have fallen down the stairs of lust into emotional vulnerability, into what are my present feelings and thoughts. But at the same time, given the circumstances… we’ve been bred into our society to think that things such as that simply ‘do not work’ that it is an unlikely and improbable situation that has a sanctuary of safety that is acquired only by the distance that is present. While in many cases this social and emotional stigma reigns true and supreme I believe that people who are capable of surpassing that particular level of conscious need not have those same rules applied. The modern paradigm of emotional and mental connection is one that has been skewed and diluted through years and years of what has become an unrealistic set of standards… I supposed all this rambling is basically to state outwardly for myself, my fuckall attitude of people in doubt, and to shut off the sense of myself that caters to those external beliefs. Scared and vulnerable we go into the darkness, only the strong and determined survive and I believe that it is based on sheer gut, intelligence and a deep connection with yourself that is held by so few. We attract each other and within that we create an absolute balance and strength where we need nothing more.